Mood Update - 11 weeks

I'm now just under three months/11 weeks/81 days on testosterone and it's been a really weird experience, but I'm finally starting to see more and more positive effects.

I put on 4 pounds when I started T and have very suddenly gone down to 8st13 again.

I've also put on a tiny bit of muscle, only noticeable on my arms (which are still not impressive but I'm working on it). When tensed, their circumferences are actually 2cms larger.

MY CONFIDENCE HAS GONE UP SO MUCH NOW THAT MY VOICE IS DEEPER. My anxiety in public is dimming down and instead of avoiding talking to strangers because my voice would give me away, I feel perfectly happy speaking to them. In fact, I avidly try to so that they know I'm male from my voice.

I never get misgendered down the phone now either, they call me 'Sir' and know that Francis is spelt with a 'I'. Makes a difference to saying my name was Frank and getting a response of 'Your taxi will be with you in twenty minute, Miss Frank'...

(Will do a new voice comparison in the next couple of weeks)

I've also go the confidence to stay over at parties and really enjoy myself instead of panicking all the time.

Oh, and I kinda, might of, perhaps, got a new boyfriend... which is a surprise to even myself after one of my last blog posts!!

So yes, my sexuality appears to have gone back to what it was before. I honestly, embarrassingly, think I was only interested in women and not men because my libido was so amazingly high and I didn't like how I have sex with men.

But not everything is about sex anymore, which is nice. Since my libido has dropped to a healthy level, I feel so much more chilled out and I feel like I'm moving onwards and upwards.

Anyway, this guy makes me happy and I'm excited to see where it goes. Plus he's SUPER CUTE. (I know he'll read this)

I'm gradually feeling more confident in my own skin, so much so that I'm dressing more how I want, which is awesome because I have great fashion sense... 

I even dyed my hair, which I've been wanting to do for ages but didn't because I didn't think I'd pass with it. So naturally I went for a most awful colour to dye my hair to make up for time lost.

(It's green)

One last thing, I've been having so many positive comments and messages passed along to me about this blog, which makes me feel like it's all worth it. Thank you for supporting me and reading my thought processes as they come.

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